its a new journey in my life. i have moved yet again to a new state after years of what seemed like another long term in my youth. now i have moved onto texas. taken my journeys from east to almost west now south.i thoght  it was tough as a child,and thought it would be easy as an adult. thought wrong its tough. so.....

whats ahead of me? that is the question to be answered in time.

how will i handle it? well it will all start with my love, my rock, my shoulder to lean on when these time are hard, my baby, my insperation, my denise!

aslo there will be friends. old and new. old friends i think keep you sane. they keep you in touch with the what you had, but can go back to. the new are there to help guide you in your new jouneys and adapt to new surroundings. 

family, you can never loose touch with them. they are there for you when yuo need them. to talk, to help, lend a hand, advice, make you laugh, talk to you when you need to cry. and also now i am starting my own new family. its starting with my fiance. soon will make denise my wife. and in good time maybe a child( not for some time tho).

so i know that its hard for me right now, but i will get through this. and to all that are around me just know that i thank you for all your help and support,a nd i love you all. thank you!

love j

I thought i was getting alot better with it but seriously why cant i shake the whole jealousy thing. i have come along way with it, and i am working on it when i feel a spell come on, but i just wish i could make it disappear. my baby gets frustrated with me when she can tell i get what i call a spell, but she deals with it and assures me everytime that there is nothing to worry about. thats one of the millions of things i love abot her. she can get me through anything and i usually dont like to lean on anyone but i can lean on here for support when needed.

so as i sit here after the softball game i just played, with my arm throbing in pain from the tendons in the elbow,and the ibeprophen kicking in i just want to admit one of my weekness' and let my sugarbutt know that i will never question your love your loyalty and know that we will be together forever.

Not knowing where it was going,

warmth and comfort easing instantly.

over time its devoleping into the best of times.

fullfilling everything you could imagine and exceeding it to infinity.

never going to let go of this love.

i never asked or prayed for a miracle, but each day im thankful to the ones who have created this angel.

my heart, life, and soul will forever be dedicated to the one i truely love.

D not only are you my love and life, but you are truely my best friend. i couldnt imagine life without you and i dont want to try. forever we will be together and someday soon we will be able to show all.

love you with all my heart

J